An Open Talk About My Depression

2017-ж., 7-фев.
645 577 Көрүүлөр

I haven't talked about this before, but I suffer from Chronic Depression, and I've made some really bad choices about it. But I'm learning how to live with it now, and I hope that, if you're watching this, you can learn to live with yours as well.
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  • Watching it again and again, when my depression gets worse. I‘m so thankful for this video, Martina and I‘m trying to built my ladder every day. 🖤

    ghosttaraghosttara3 күн мурун
  • I totally get pink hair.When I had rainbow hair; it was at my worst depressed season and it was the only reason I had to get up and start the day.

    evgeniaevgeniaАй мурун
  • *crying* i love you martina, thank you for being here with us and for being the beautiful person you are TTTTTT

    Bethany LingleBethany LingleАй мурун
  • why have so many people disliked this video- wtf

    Sarz93Sarz93Ай мурун
  • you remind my of Bridget Jones, just prettier!

    Skiderik1000Skiderik10002 ай мурун
  • You are an AMAZING BEEYOOTEEFUL SOUL MARTINA!!! SIMON YOU ARE SUCH A BLESSING! God bless you both immensely with the fulfillment of all your beautiful wild dreams! Much love! *hugs and kisses*

    JoJo2 ай мурун
  • I’ve been praying and learning more about empathy. This video helped me a lot. You’re loved so much by so many people in your life and it is very authentic. Thank you for being honest. Thank you so much for this and your honesty.

    Matt BlairMatt Blair2 ай мурун
  • I needed to come back to this video, this video really speaks to me. I know Simon and Martina may never seen this comment but I want them to remember this video and how important it is to focus on mental health and happiness. The world is a tough place right now and a lot has happened this year. We, as nasties, love you both through thick and thin. We are a family, and we all want the best for all. Stay strong and take the time you need. But never forget the huge family you both have holding you up when you need it.

    Emily GoodchildEmily Goodchild2 ай мурун
  • ❤️

    Shawly IsaqueShawly Isaque3 ай мурун
  • My god, I wish this video was done lately, I have moments I don’t want to keep going. I use comedy as you do. But I’ve taken myself off of narcotics and I don’t have a condition like you but, I have a spinal cord injury between my shoulder blades. They can’t operate until I am pissing and pooping myself. It causes back stomach arm legs arms chest face spasms, trouble breathing and body tingles like your leg falling asleep. Also a lot of days of 10-10 pain. I’m looking for KGworld videos of someone that has experienced these thoughts and it’s all dr’s giving bs advise. I was paralyzed and in a wheel chair for 2 years, no problem! High on oxy and fentonal! Just hearing someone relate helps me. I have attempted and thought out suicide. Now I have a daughter and that stops me from doing it. That’s not fair to her. Thank you for putting this video out and letting me rant.

    SpeedSykoSpeedSyko3 ай мурун
  • love you sweetheart. we all go through depression. i lost my father in 2018 after a long illness. at the same time my husband had prostate cancer and kidney cancer. he had a kidney removed and radiation. so i juggled taking care of them both pretty much alone. my brother was not helpful. after daddy died had to settle his estate and sell the farm, find a house while working full time. it was tough. i didnt think i was depressed but my doctor did. medication really helped. my daughter, best friend, and Church helped me. i still have days that i want to cry, but i get through it. you got simon, your mom, family, and all of us. God bless you. annette in kentucky

    robert stanfillrobert stanfill4 ай мурун
  • awe, I love you Martina, and I think you're one of the strongest people I've ever encountered. Your content with Simon has brought me many happy days amongst sad and awful situations, and I just want you to know you matter to me, and you guys make me a better person. Love you both.

    JennzOrsJennzOrs4 ай мурун
  • You are so strong, love you guys 💙

    *Quack* mysteriously silver*Quack* mysteriously silver5 ай мурун
  • This made me tear up because I've had many thoughts of suicide and reckless/careless decisions. My family doesn't know anything but this year I decided I was gonna be more open about it and unapologetic. I have depression and suicidal thoughts/tendencies. I am not going to hide it anymore or apologize for it, all I can do is try harder and do better. I graduated last month from high school and I have to do better for myself so I can get through the rest of my life, and it is taking alot for me to want this because all my life I never thought about the future because I thought I would never make it that far due to always wanting to end it. Martina makes me want to be happy, and that is invaluable to me. Simon makes me want to care for others and always help, and that is invaluable to me. These people saved my life and there is no way I can ever thank them.

    Angelina SanchezAngelina Sanchez6 ай мурун
  • Martina, you are such a brave person, and a good one with a wonderful bubbly personality. This video is normal, am glad you talk about it, for i have seen on the videos that true the smiles jokes, there is someone inside hurting. Just take it one step at a time, and i feel yeah girl.

    Rachel RobijnRachel Robijn6 ай мурун
  • Siempre que me siento mal vuelvo a ver este video y me doy fuerzas para seguir adelante. Gracias Martina, no sé como escribirte esto en inglés pero, gracias de todo corazón.

    Karla PeraltaKarla Peralta6 ай мурун
  • For all these years I am restisting to watch the dark and deep vedios of ur channel,I can see u guys cry , because after watching this vedio I know I will cry and I am crying now😭 I wish I can exchange body with u Martina to save u from the pain. I am a perfectly healthy person but don't have half amount of positivity like urs.thanks to you i build a ladder for my self from now one

    smita rani sethismita rani sethi6 ай мурун
  • You don't know the amount of times I come to this video and playlist to help me focus and build by ladder again. Depression is fucked up, anxiety is fucked up, but one ladder step at a time

    Ana LourençoAna Lourenço6 ай мурун
  • Just, thank you for this brave video. I soo needed to hear this right now in my life. Thank you for the ladder out of my hole..

    Jessica Lindmark HammarskolanJessica Lindmark Hammarskolan6 ай мурун
  • Watch 1× = step to my ladder +1 🌞

    ValentoisValentois7 ай мурун
  • I suffer from chronic depression and I watched this video when it came out 3 years ago when I was in my own very dark place. I'm still there but I'm building my ladder as best I can. This video is something I watch on my darkest days because it makes me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing your story and keeping me company for 3 years. You've had such a profound impact on my life and I'm so glad we are both here. ❤️

    Cee3p0Cee3p07 ай мурун
  • (。・・。)( ノω-、)(。>A

    GT kazuGT kazu8 ай мурун
  • I have EDS also and now I’m crying with you... 🥄 sending spoons

    Stephy PStephy P8 ай мурун
  • You inspired me so much Martina! I attempted suicide too and i was feeling in a really dark place that time, i feel really hopeless but i tried for help and everything work better.Just hearing you talk about a topic that many times feels like a taboo in our society is a huge relief, talking about mental health is an important thing and seeing videos on yt is a form of spreading information about it. I suffer a kind of genetic depression and maybe i never be happy without my pills because i can't produce my serotonin, but still doing my best girl! 💪

    Fernanda Almeyda MoyaFernanda Almeyda Moya8 ай мурун
  • Thank you, Martina 💚

    Poisoned SugarPillPoisoned SugarPill8 ай мурун
  • I have anxiety and depression and have been diagnosed with meniscus tear recently, my doctor actually said "sure, you can stil exercise, if you think you can handle the pain". Even sitting around sometimes can be a pain but i tottaly went off Parachuting with my father since it was on my bucket list of crazy-and-adventurous-things-i-stil- want-to-do and he gave it to me as a bday gift. I was in pain later and tottaly panicked a bit when i was up there but it was worth it. The instructor was the sweetest and i am happy i did it.

    Joy LucioJoy Lucio8 ай мурун
  • You made me cry a little :’( it was such a beautiful video... I relate so much with how you are feeling...

    Véronique KowalewiczVéronique Kowalewicz8 ай мурун
  • Today has been a hard day for me and i came to watch this video again. Thank you Martina. Thank you.

    Yohana ToméYohana Tomé9 ай мурун
  • Every so often I come back to this video. I like to use it as the first rung on my ladder after falling down. Thank you for this.

    Leah DuffLeah Duff9 ай мурун
  • I always felt kind of guilty for having depression without chronic pain/illness. After rewatching this video, it suddenly occurred to me that due to my binge-eating-disorder, I am massively overweight and I DO feel pain when I move around. I DO get exhausted super easily and want to do nothing but sleep to forget. It obviously comes nowhere NEAR any chronic pain that comes with EDS or other illnesses, but it does help me to feel a bit less guilty and like less of a fraud when I'm skipping university because I just couldn't get up in the morning, let alone shower and get dressed in time. My therapist suggested multiple times that my weight and the issues coming with are the major cause of my depression, so we're really tackling it, to the point where I'm considering surgery for the first time, just like I've been taking antidepressants for the first time in my life after refusing them for 5+ year. It feels like, despite the setbacks, I finally DO want to get better? I'm not good at building a ladder yet, but maybe I'll start working on that if I have the energy.

    OuranorOuranor9 ай мурун
  • Re-watching this video 3 years later, Was working at a dead end job I HATED with a passion, alongside untreated chronic depression (Non-EDS related) With this video and counselling I was inspired to quit my job and make a leap. Now in my 3rd year of Osteopathy school and managing my depression well. In fact, I was so inspired by this video and other similar videos you've made, I am now currently doing my final year dissertation on "how Osteopathy can help with the management in Ehlers-Danlos syndromes" and looking to work with Dr Janet Deane and Jane Simonds two top EDS specialists from the University College of London and The Imperial College of London. Came back to remember why I went down this path and get re-inspired. None of this would of happened if not for this video, Just want to say a HUGE thank you and #build-a-ladder

    ozzy1267ozzy12679 ай мурун
  • I’ve been feeling really down the last few days. I just found out my military boyfriend is being sent to Afghanistan for six months. We’ve lived together for almost three years and we’ve never been apart more than a couple of weeks. I was lying in bed feeling sorry for myself when this video auto played. After watching, I got up, put on an outfit that made me feel cute. Went out and got a coffee. I saw a beautiful sunset, listened to some great music in the car, and had a good conversation with the barista. Now I’m home feeling different. Not like everything is fine now, but my mindset has definitely changed. Thank you, Martina.

    AkenNichols13AkenNichols1310 ай мурун
  • I've rewatched this video many times, and every time it inspires me yet again. I have this friend who got married 3 months ago, and last month her husband asked her to divorce. She's utterly depressed, she didn't expect it and things didn't seem to go wrong. He didn't mention being unhappy, they we're even planning a trip soon. So the psychologist said she can't do anything else for her as she seems not wanting to be better. She's lost the will to live and enjoy what she has. To me, is not the worst thing that could happen in your life, but to her is the end of the world as she knew it. They were together since a young age and they're planning the kids+house+dog combo, so it's tough. What can I do to help her??? We've been trying to get her out, but nothing seems to unset that "unhappy for the rest of my life" button inside her head. Please help!!!

    caconetescaconetes10 ай мурун
  • Thank-you for posting this. It's been a hard day, and I "had no reason" to feel demotivated or down. Just watched your collab video with Depression to Expression about depression and chronic pain - you debusted a lot of myths that weren't true! This made me put some food on the birdfeeder and walk outside. Just feeling like one or 2 other ppl understand what you are going through and can relate is the best feeling ever. I have so many big dreams and aspirations, but fear stops me even moving my foot let alone take a step forward, so to speak (metaphorically). It's still hard now, but hopefully I can muster up the courage someday to achieve my bigger dreams and not just settle for something average that was my 5th or 6th pick.

    wattwatt11 ай мурун
  • dear lovely, I totally get. but when you say, it didnt work ...... I just think if one wants to end it they can make it. like look at Anthony Bourdain .... I also ask myself what the hell you r doing still.. I feel better when I go out and have adventures too. but my job is writing , being in meetings ... and these make pain harder and pain makes concentration very challenging

    shahilaghshahilagh11 ай мурун
  • I love you so much, you are such an angel, such an inspirational message. I deal with extreamly low self esteem and I'm not even ill at all, thank you for this

    Danielle BradfieldDanielle BradfieldЖыл мурун
  • Your so brave xxx

    Courtney WoodCourtney WoodЖыл мурун
  • I get this. I've been dealing with heavy depression myself this year after a friend. Who I communicated in some way, almost daily basis for past 25 years, hid his pain and problems from everyone that cared about him.... Had a particular bad time financially and with a lady friend he didn't tell any of his friends or family about. And he decided it was time for him to check out. And he did it without saying a word to anyone, despite a huge net of people that would have taken care of him, even indefinitely if he had just said something. Basically the cliche of toxic masculinity is what killed him and it gutted everyone that cared about him emotionally. And also at the time the business I worked for, for the last 15 years and my only job I've had in my life was in the process of abruptly closing down. So I was overwhelmed. My friend's suicide brought on all kinds of feeling of guilt, sadness, and anger. And the anxiety of finding work for the first time in 15 years as someone that has problems with being fairly reclusive it just did me in. I just gave up, I stopped education I was working on, stopped looking for work. I didn't attempt suicide, but I'd think about it all the time. I didn't do it because I didn't want to pass the pain along. I refused it because I wasn't going to put my friends through it twice. And I wasn't going to put my family through it either. So I just stayed home, I spent most of my time in bed, and just kept living. That has been my one life goal. Just. Stay. Alive. But very slowly I've started doing exactly what you're describing to put myself back together. Just finding, something, any kind of experience and just doing it. I started simple and then started doing bigger things. Just looking for beauty or experience anything to pull myself forward. And I still carry the weight and think about what's happened every day but I am slowly moving forward now.

    RaspzillaRaspzillaЖыл мурун
  • Love to you

    Dreamcuddle XAngelDreamcuddle XAngelЖыл мурун
  • you are so amazing, i feel like you guys are like my best friends 💕💕

    Paola EvansPaola EvansЖыл мурун
  • I always return to this video when Im not doing to good... It really helps to stay strong and keep going

    UnicornApocalypsUnicornApocalypsЖыл мурун
  • Thank you so much for this video! I was also a very depressed teenager, but I always wanted to live abroad. So after graduating, I just moved to London (as a EU citizen I didn't have as much trouble doing it, as other people would have). After that I just started doing things I want to do more and more. I still don't do what I want all the time, because sometimes the sadness just overwhelms me. But I made it to Japan, I was able to make friends (even though I am so awkward and anxious) and I go out again and again! And don't be sorry for crying! It just shows, that you have had hard times, but you survived and you make so many people happy! You are an incredible person and I think this video will really help me with my illnesses as well

    steffi2922steffi2922Жыл мурун
  • I'm sorry I wasn't there to hug you. 😞

    SalzkornSalzkornЖыл мурун
  • Well I am soo glade you are here. That I have got to discover your channel and get to explore Japan through your channel. ❤️

    Amanda NguyenAmanda NguyenЖыл мурун
  • This video saved my life. Literally, thank you for sharing. One of my biggest models in life now is "if you're bold enough to end all, then you're bold enough live however you please". Thank you Martina you saved hundreds possible millions with this one video. ☺️ Stay strong girl. Also thank you Simon for being that beautiful rock that you are ❤️. You show me that I can be loved despite my pain. You both give me hope.

    Aquarius LocsAquarius LocsЖыл мурун
  • Wow. I happened to be up in the middle of the night because my own chronic pain was too much to allow me to sleep. It is hard to get out of bed these days because of the pain. I call it my “12 Point Turn” just to get up safely. My head feels like I just had recent major surgery in it. I struggle with being afraid I won’t have enough pain meds to get to work. Yes, I have to work because I haven’t chosen to go on disability. I know that sounds crazy, but I am just not ready for the financial adjustment. I used to be able to work from home, and that helped a ton, but that is no longer an option. I started getting sick before I got a chance to meet someone good and get married so I have no one to help me, well, except my closest friends, and they are people who have chronic severe physical issues as well. I am the one who can’t get herself to admit when she needs help. I don’t know why I am like that. Thank you, Martina, for sharing your story.

    Ancilla IndignaAncilla IndignaЖыл мурун
  • Will ever be worth a re-watching. You da bomb Martina and with your Dothraki warrior at your side there is no ladder you can't climb.

    Tsarminya BrightTsarminya BrightЖыл мурун
  • I need a video from simon on how he helps you so i can help my husband

    Izumi BrisingrIzumi BrisingrЖыл мурун
  • I recently was told by doctors that I might have had depression since my early teens and maybe earlier than that. I was diagnosed with depression in 2015 when I tried to take my own life because it wasn't going to get better. Everywhere I looked I saw potential places to take my life. It's hard but I am getting better. Slowly but surely. I have a partner that takes my feelings seriously and tries his best to help me when I'm down. I'm not cured, but it's better. A year after I got diagnosed I left the city I grew up in and moved out to the countryside where I now live with my awesome partner. Talking to different psychiatrists has shown me that I've basically lived my life in a way that made it so I would fall into a deep depression sooner or later. It's hard to hear but something I had to hear. One step at a time. It's getting better. Some days I fall down a step or two, but I'm still much higher up the ladder than when I first started.

    dithorickidithorickiЖыл мурун
  • I know I'm late to the party...but This is so inspirational! I'm going to share this with my friends that need it. Keep on building your ladder Martina! Simon, you give me a goal to strive for as a human being.

    John MossJohn MossЖыл мурун
  • I get depression over live difficulties, and I was born with the horrible disease GAD (generalized anxiety disorder). In high school, i was bullied. I dealt at a young age with family death. I knew suffering. So, I embarked on a quest to find the answer to life and what life is all about. Although I was raised a Christian, I wanted to make sure that i was following the right religion. So, I took a secular (unbiased) course on world religions. I used hallucinogenic drugs for over 25 years. I listened to gurus and Dr. Timothy Leary. In college, I got a minor in philosophy and a Masters in biology, the study of life. What did I learn? I realized, from the hallucinogenic drugs, that there is a higher reality than what we perceive as we live day by day dealing with life's problems. I know that there is a God because of creation; all I have to do is look at my body. It is a designed electrochemcalbiological machine able to self heal. I did not design it. It is, to me, obviously designed and created by an intelligent source (God). i also realize that I have done many bad things in my life. For example, taking LSD is illegal. I was breaking the law. I learned that of all the major world religions, it is Christianity that says that in order to wipe away our wrong deeds (sins), God sent His son Jesus Christ (God as a Man) to live a perfect, sinless life. That way he could die on the cross in our place and, as Jesus intended and said, take on our sin and pay for them by spending 3 days in the lowest depth of Hell so that we can stand blameles before all-sinless, all-righteous, all-powerful, loving God. But God has to be a fair God and judge sin. Sin separates us from God because we do sin because we lack love for others in our heart, and God is an all loving God. So, God sends sinners to Hell, where there is separation from God and torment forever after we die. But God sent jesus to take away our sin. Jesus said that all we have to do to enter into Heaven, where there are no more problems and sadness, is to believe that he died on the cross for our sins and to accept him as our Lord and savior. That is it. We are still, and will always be, sinful. But if we love Jesus, we will try not to sin so that he does not have to pay for more of our sins. It is not living a sinless, perfect life, which we cannot do, that will allow us to enter heaven, but just having faith in Jesus. No other major religion states this. This makes sense to me. So even though i have a criminal record that is preventing me from getting a job, not having a family, having to take care of my 78 year old mother and being poor and eating out of soup kitchens, I am filled with happiness and job because I know that problematic life, which is very short compared to all eternity, will end and after I die I will enter the wonderful kingdom of Heaven forever more. So remember that when you are depressed. i also find that jogging helps with depression. Frank Reiser

    Frank Reiser M.S.Frank Reiser M.S.Жыл мурун
  • Thank you for sharing! So much love, all the hugs. This was the first time I ever heard of "building a ladder" and it's helped me SO MUCH. Thank you again, love you both, and I hope you're having a great day

    RB SmithRB SmithЖыл мурун
  • Love you Martina stay strong 💟❤ you and Simon are awesome

  • You know, I found your Chanel because of my interest in travel, and my upcoming trip to Japan. I stayed because you are both awesome. Now, I am HERE because as a sufferer of both Chronic Pain and Bipolar Disorder I feel like you are someone I can relate too. Your "Build a Ladder" imagery is very accurate to the way I try to cope with my pain, depression, and anxiety. It helps remind me to keep adding those rungs. I am just recently digging myself back out of a very difficult two years.. your so called pity party is just the opposite. It's full of Hope and courage. It's real and relatable. Even though this is an "older" video, thank you for sharing, for opening up. We need to share these dialogs, we need to help each cope, and we need to destigmatize mental illness. You are helping to do all of that. Also sorry if I'm coming off as a creepy stalker by commenting on so many videos lately. As implied earlier, I'm kind of binging on Japan travel related content lately. So I just watched many of your videos, old and new this week. Travel, the opportunity to see new places and try new things, and the planning of trips, is one of the rungs on MY ladder.

    Veronica RossoVeronica RossoЖыл мурун
  • Thank you Martina, I always came back to this video everytime I feel down. This video gave me strength to keep moving. ❤❤❤

    KanayaKanayaЖыл мурун
  • Thank you for making this video and thank you for sharing this with us all! ❤️

    Birgitte JohnsenBirgitte JohnsenЖыл мурун
  • I can imagine a man cured by ads with genetic editing in 2100 looking at this video like we watch at people dying from common cold in the middle ages.. we were born too early

    Aall PprrAall PprrЖыл мурун
  • We love you Martina, you're so strong. I'm so proud of you for coming as far as you have. You're doing a great job, even on days when you feel bad you're doing great. 💖💖💖*HUUUUUGS*💖💖💖 thank you for being so brave and sharing this about yourself.

    Racheal WestRacheal WestЖыл мурун
  • I was diagnosed with depression at the ripe old age of 11. I'm very greatful to have your channel to go to when I feel bad. Knowing how much you guys have gone through and seeing you guys still choose to be happy and do the things you want to do has been really inspiring.❤

    Yeontan's SugaDaddyYeontan's SugaDaddyЖыл мурун
  • I keep coming back to this video because it helps me so much.. i love you martina💗

    Thoughtful RavioliThoughtful RavioliЖыл мурун
  • I needed to hear this today. Thank you for posting this.

    Anna Bartlett-AveryAnna Bartlett-AveryЖыл мурун
  • It’s always the small things that keep you going~ I’m so happy you’re trying to be strong and trying to be positive~!!! (*´꒳`*)

    Rose QuartzRose QuartzЖыл мурун
  • Martina, thank you for your honesty and for showing that everyone has their ups and downs. I just want to send many hugs to you ♡

    Manyu JManyu JЖыл мурун
  • U guys are still the best - Martina, u r so inspirational - lots of hugs from here 🥰

    EveTheShopperEveTheShopperЖыл мурун
  • Watching this again because I'm mentally relapsing again. Need to remind myself to build that ladder. Grateful to say I haven't gone back to the very bottom this time but its still so hard.

    misatchimisatchiЖыл мурун
  • Ive been suffering from migraine since I was eight. Most of my memories up ontil my early twenties is a blur of pain, fear, regret and the cold hard ground. I stopped going outside, never talked to anyone not even my siblings, parents didn't take my illness seriously cause they couldn't see it, and the meds the docs pumped into did more harm than if I did nothing at all. So I did nothing. I'm in my mid twenties now and have found ways to cope with my illness.(thank god for weed) I'm still alone, and learning how to come out my shell. But I'm glad to be alive. I don't know what to say to anyone dealing with chronic pain alone. Just know that life is worth living. Life is precious. Please don't end it.

    MrKomMrKomЖыл мурун
  • ❤️

    Jose LujanJose LujanЖыл мурун
  • I dont suffer from cronic pain but I was recently diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes (and you guys have cheered me up so many times). And I rly relate to the part where you feel like your watching a movie/reading a book. Youre such a huge inspiration #buildaladder

    inaritalesinaritalesЖыл мурун
  • Martina, I know this is a few years old now, but I just now watched it. I needed to hear the #buildaladder message again. My EDS is kicking my ass lately, and I'm struggling to stay afloat. Thanks for putting this out there.

    J StipeJ StipeЖыл мурун
  • Girl!! I’m crying with you. I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety my whole life and I can understand. Sometimes it takes me days to leave the house. I try to find crafts I love to do at home. I make homemade cards, knit hats, and read a really good book. I’m happy just to let my dogs outside in our backyard and let the sunshine on my face. Thank you for sharing your life with me. I’m hugging you back girlfriend!!

    Naika DeutschNaika DeutschЖыл мурун
  • MoonwalkerID97 GMoonwalkerID97 GЖыл мурун
  • thank you so much for sharing!! your awesome I will do my part to start building a ladder. With my depression I just hid and did thing. but now that I met my husband he was taking the end part. it makes me sad. Seeing you and Simon really help thank you. i need to build ladders. =^_._^=

    VeroVeroЖыл мурун
  • thanks for posting this...I had seen the depression in your newer videos, but it wasn't confirmed until now. thanks for being brave.

    stephstargirlstephstargirlЖыл мурун
  • Keep on going lady, this was SOO good. Best Pity Party ever

    Katie YorkKatie YorkЖыл мурун
  • I absolutely get it...YOU DO YOU!!!! Much love and a lot of hugs!

    Robin HRobin HЖыл мурун
  • I love you soo much you have given me so much perspective and positivity in my life!!! Thank you for sharing your story and I will always support you!! Stay strong!!❤️❤️❤️😭😭

    hazel156hazel156Жыл мурун
  • I always come back to this video whenever I fall back at the bottom... It keeps me going.

    Vixen WitchVixen WitchЖыл мурун
  • love u martina!!!!! you got this! 💪🏻 thank u so much for sharing ❤️

    Amelia YeoAmelia YeoЖыл мурун
  • I rewatch this video even after a few years to get some strength for my own battle. Thanks Martina. Thanks Simon.

    MsAnotherCrazyfanMsAnotherCrazyfanЖыл мурун
  • Rewatching this, and think about my sweet puppy that I lost over depression, I wish he could see this. I will try my best to enjoy my life and not lose over depression.

    Sheep CarmenSheep CarmenЖыл мурун
  • I have to say Martina, you and Simons videos are my instant go to when I’m feeling depressed, last night I had a big breakdown panic attack like I’ve never had before, and my mom and partner confronted me about dealing with my social anxiety and depression and I will admit I’m at the lowest point I’ve ever been in but they’re going to help me get help and find new meds and be happy. Your videos helped me calm down and fall asleep last night, I’ve been watching since I was a kid and I’m incredibly grateful. thank you for putting them out there. They remind me that I can go on adventures and get coffee at 7 am if I want to and if things aren’t going well at the moment then things will be okay in the future because there are good things out there. Like friends and a favorite coffee shop and people that just aren’t your friends yet. Thank you

    Julia MaierJulia MaierЖыл мурун
  • My mom suffers from anxiety attacks at least 3x a week and it hurts me sooo much that I can’t help her with it. There is a pill called Ativan that helps her with it but she can’t take that anymore because of another medication she’s taking. Hurts me so much when I see her get those anxiety attacks 😢

    Jess WdJess WdЖыл мурун
  • Thanks for this video 💕🦄

    Melissa CaycoMelissa CaycoЖыл мурун
  • i learnt a similar mindset to this to help me with depression for the similar reasons, but the depression keeps coming back and thankyou for making a video like this which reminds me everytime it gets really bad that i can just do things to build that ladder and move forward

    Emily DoanEmily DoanЖыл мурун
  • I keep showing up late to these videos, but I'm so very glad that I find them. First of all, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for. Second, thank you for sharing this incredibly moving video, I know it was a tough one. Both I and my fiance struggled with depression in the past, he actually tried (and failed thank all the powers in the universe) while I simply came home from school every day and stared at my pill bottles contemplating what I would do if I didn't have three younger sisters who needed me, they absolutely saved my life. I was born with a chronic illness that has no cure and have developed both chronic joint pain and fibromyalgia. I definitely no longer remember what a day without pain feels like. Finding your videos, especially at the time that I did, when I was suffering a great deal of pain has really helped me and made me and my foodie self incredibly jealous and if I ever get my second kidney transplant I totally plan to travel to Japan. Thank you for your honesty, your laughter, and all the food porn.

    Rachael DurkinRachael DurkinЖыл мурун
  • Bless you Martina.... I needed to see this ♥️

    Katie DesimpelKatie DesimpelЖыл мурун
  • Never feel embarrassed to cry. Many Blessings

    nordonnanordonnaЖыл мурун
  • I hope Eds cure gets discovered I know how you feel, I have been having really bad days for the past few weeks because of my medical condition related to digestion that I have been dealing with for the past 4 years and I had also lost hope, but you have inspired me and lifted my soul.

    Navpreet KaurNavpreet KaurЖыл мурун
  • This video helped me. I have chronic pain. I have degenerative bone and disc disease and have two fused vertebrae in my neck and deal with pain every day. Some days are overwhelming some days just a lingering pain. I also suffer from ptsd. Some days I really struggle but I always watch videos or listen to music and it helps

    Clista MartinClista MartinЖыл мурун
  • I survive chronic pain everydays remembering this video a chronic pain fighter friend sent to me.

    Vixen WitchVixen WitchЖыл мурун
  • I watched this video many times, every time brought me a new way of thinking. Although I don’t have such hard situation as Martina, I got strength from her, thank you sweet girl.

    棉花糖棉花糖Жыл мурун
  • thank you martina I love you

    Mia I.Mia I.Жыл мурун
  • Girllll, watching this makes me feel nothing but motivated to do whatever the heck I have wanted to do in my life. Thank you so much and stay positive sisssss :))))

    My PhanMy PhanЖыл мурун
  • hey, I hope it's okay to write you. I am a very sensitive and empathic person and though of course I don't know how it is to have this kind of chronical physical pain I feel like I can feel your emotional pain. I have been in this dark pit too. I'm with you. Thanks for sharing.

    misramfulmisramfulЖыл мурун
  • I had this mind set in high school when it came to depression. I was at the brink and said give it all before you give it up. And it was the happiest years of my life. After some hard events im back to square one. Im starting to find happiness again. Slowly. Buts its happening. Thankful for sharing your story.

    Vi0let.ski3sVi0let.ski3sЖыл мурун
  • Martina, We love you :) Have a good day

    Stéphane GagnéStéphane GagnéЖыл мурун
  • Sweet Martina, I know how difficult this video was for you to make. I suffer from chronic chemical depression, chronic pain, and I’m immunosuppressed, so I get sick a lot. But, I’ve dreamed of being able to travel the world since I was a teenager, and I’m finally doing it, and none of that is going to stop me until I’m physically unable (or run out of money). After almost every big trip, I get sick, and I’m sure it’s because I push myself more than I should, but at 59, I realize the importance of living my best life, and for me, that’s exploring the world and its people. Do whatever makes you happy!

    The Wandering WifeThe Wandering WifeЖыл мурун
  • Martina, I recently found your channel and have been watching your old videos. While I love the upbeat, positive energy that you and Simon bring to your videos on a regular basis, I cannot thank you enough for being real with your followers and sharing this sentiment with us. I can't imagine how difficult it was for you to shoot this particular video. But you are an inspiration and your story will hopefully help others having similar struggles! Thank you for being unique, beautiful, positive (even on the dark days) and most of all real!

    Megan McIntireMegan McIntireЖыл мурун
  • Been having one of these days. Keep wondering if the hole I'm in can get deeper. Husband says it will get better but I'm not so sure.

    w harringtonw harringtonЖыл мурун
  • I haven't watched this video in a long time, and just now I rewatched it. I'm having a very hard day mentally, and rewatching this gives me more ideas and hope that I'll get through this. Martina, I really wish you had a separate channel talking about your condition and your mental health, but as I've come to see in a lot of people who suffer chronically (like myself), talking about your condition tends to be very overwhelming and difficult. I just wanted to thank you again for making this video

    PinkyPinkyЖыл мурун